Friday, 13 March 2009,19:24
Time to grow up
I miss ranting here. I always feel like blogging but never really got around to opening my blog and writing down something. It is not because I am so swamped with work 'cause I'm not (but I think I should be, I am just in denial).
My friend and I spent the afternoon together. For a change I managed to drag my butt out of bed, in time to meet her in town for, initially, some window shopping but as usual I ended up spending when I'm not really suppossed to. That's just very typical of me. But I tried to justify it by saying that the last time I really went shopping was when I did my Christmas presents shopping which by the way, does not really count as
shoppingforme. Okay, that wasn't really the last time because I just remembered that I did spend about a hundred quid on Boxing Day when there was a huge sale.
So we yes, we went shopping then we ate in Mackies afterwards. Then we got in to talking about the silly stuff we did back when we were naive and young. Not that we're really old but you get what I mean. It is quite amazing for me in a way that the things that used to matter or bother me back then just seems silly and nonsense to me now. I guess I can take that as an indication that somehow I have grown. I'd like to think that I have outgrown all those things.
Back in the early days of high school life, which by the way feels like a lifetime ago now, I frequently get bothered/upset/depressed. You would never guess my reason, love. Not the heavy love stuff but the pathetic, petty and probably shallow one. LOL
I kind of hate thinking about it now because I wonder how shallow I can get. I used to cry over very trivial things and when I do get in to what you call
'lover's quarrel', I take my time getting depressed and all mopey like my whole world is falling apart. Which by now I have realized that it doesn't always happen that way. I've had my fair share of heart aches and heart breaks here and there. But what's silly and quite funny is how the very insignificant things got to me before. When I try to remember all those crying moments, I'm really compelled to go back in time and give myself a good smack on the head and tell her,
"Stop this non-sense and make better use of your time and life. It ain't always gonna this easy, trust me silly, naive me!". You see if I can do just that then I would have saved myself all those bucket of tears shed for nothing. Well probably not until I explain to myself how pathetic I am by doing such things.
So when I hear young people complaining and ranting about how their life sucks just because they had a fight with their bfs/gfs, I can't help but laugh a little. Not because I find it funny that they are unhappy. It's because I know one day, they will realize that life can get a lot more complicated than the usual LQ between lovers. They say that in love, age doesn't matter. In my opinion, sometimes it does. I tell my younger cousins and some friends who are younger than me to not take love too seriously. What I am trying to tell them is to not let themselves get too caught up in the drama. But I guess that can't be helped because high school, most of the time, is just a big drama. That's what makes it one of the highlights in most peoples' lives.
I am no love expert. Even if I sound old and cynical right now, I admit that until this point I'm still not sure whether I really understand that four letter word.
Maybe we all need to be silly, shallow and naive in our younger days. Maybe during those teenage years, we get that special privelege. However, we won't always have that especially when growing old is inevitable and the need to grow up, even if it's optional is something we must do 'cause life forces us to.
